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Mon Nov 17 '86

5:45 Mark gets his wake up call. I sleep in

8:30 Misc.

11:00 Go to Kaplan's for fatigues. Shorts, pants, and tshirt. Lunch at Wendy's nearby.

1:00 Drink tea + read Out on a Limb at La Fleur Coffee Shop.

3:00 Leave for airport. Return car, etc. Reading Out on a Limb and a very good looking man in suit is looking at me. Staring. It made me nervous and I didn't kno what to do.

1) I was into reading

2) I looked like shit compared to him. Old blue jeans. Tshirt. Uncut hair. Tennis hoes. Carrying 3 bags

3) The last point not only looked bad, but I couldn't easily change seats

4) I had given my ticket to counter to try for window seat, so I couldn't get in line when they called for boarding, so I couldn't meet him

5) I felt conflict with cruising a guy or flirting when I have my heart open to another man.

It was intriguing but it didn't feel right

when I did board I saw him in first class and he still looked at me, but I passed to coach class and read more and didn't even try to think how I could insure meeting him? Could I do anything? Mindless

6:15 When we landed, I gathered my luggage, and didn't see him anywhere. I looked, but I felt it was somehow not good.

7:00 Then I couldn't find the car. I thought second floor, was fifth.

7:30 After that I returned to airport but thought "why should I search if he didn't wait for me?" So I sat in terminal and finished "Out on a Limb"

8:30 Drove home. Audi sure feels good.