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a year just to start to feel comfortable there. I also have to feel around to get to know the set. I have to move somewhat slowly so I don't blow the whole scene. If I got there when I was 26 I'd feel like hurrying since I'd realize I only have 4 years left till I'm over the hill.

What I'm saying is I want to be young with my lover for a couple years say when we're 27 + 28, getting to know him when I'm 25 + 26, that sort of thing. All this coming year would be taken up w/ screwing around making friends, etc. Going places + doing things that I've always wanted to do.

Really... Can I not wait? It is an important crucial decision. If I do stay in ABQ, I will get a lot of money maybe. That would be the only reason to stay. Meanwhile my love life is stifled completely, my only friends are Bill