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If I go there I can stay for a long time. I would want to. I would like to live in the same place a long time. I would have to move slowly but no one would be pushing me so I think it would work. I wouldn't relax but I would do things at a proper pace like I used to at Lakeside + Fresh-Jun years incl DC. I was at UNM Library I used to feel very uneasy being at a university but being at work. It was peculiar. This of course has no reflection on Fresh-Jun, only on Senior year, a bad time. I bring it up to remind myself I don't want to do college.

Then when I get to be 30 + sedate, maybe I will go to Harvard if I have a lover to keep me company.

Anyway maybe I should write what has happened to me in the last 9 months. That is what I've wanted to say so often but never stable enough to do so.