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and which are random half days. Also that weekend when Chip was at his sister's wedding, Oct 23, I realized I didn't want to work on Music at all. I started to talk with myself about fame + glory. That is really the only reason I would do it. + Maybe money. Fame + glory are ethereal. They do not last. You cannot have them after they exist + they don't feel good to me. I do not even want it. That is I think I would dislike being a celebrity + having lots of recognition. I would have no privacy which Lord knows I need + want. I want to be able to go to a disco + not have everyone recognize me.

But I do want recognition + fame maybe in my industry. But that is what I say I have no appreciation for. I cannot savor it. "Ah what fame I have" I don't do that.

The thing of greatest importance to me is doing an interesting job day to day