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Chip was still not loosening up. I did not know where his head or heart were at. I was starting to feel misplaced + strange about it. I should have said something then I guess. It was on my mind no doubt and some evenings were dull so I could have said something but I didn't.

Then, we had a party for Paul's leaving MITS at our house Nov 20. Lots of people were there it was a good party. But Chip didn't show up. He later said he came by around 1:00 + nobody was there. He still could've showed his face!!! But I was very unhappy + went for a ride Sunday morning, blowing my time to exercise, so that was worse.

Anyway he called me up Monday Nov 22 + we went out, ate at the Cooperage + went home. Watched news + Mary Hartmann. Then to bed. He had no erection. I just did it myself. I wondered. We had had such a good evening. then that. Hmm? No desire for me.