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the outset when the conversation lulled + then told him reaction. Also when I layed Jim LaJeune I should have realized more strongtly what I was doing + also should have asked Chip what he thought of this sort of playing around. If it hurt him, I'd have learned a lot, and in time.

So much for my romances. After I got back to Seattle I talked with P + B a bit then went out + found a new place to go, the Boren St Disco. Nice music. Very good men + good dancers too. Nice architecture. Sort of Bavarian ski chalet. Met nice guy from Seattle U at last moment. Tom Bruce. He knew Bill Roberts in high school at Longview. Good buddies. Didn't go out Christmas Eve nor Christmas. I was hurt about that latter one. I vowed to myself next Christmas I will have a lover to go to bed with here at home on XMAS.

Monday I went to see Rita + stayed there till 4:00 AM.