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have to be Chip. It's not his fault.

And I couldn't love Chip. He + I differ in many ways + I plan to move to LA soon. I guess all I want is enough of his friendship to keep me going. He is the only one in ABQ I really care for + can relate to. So losing him is terrifying. But I don't want to possess him.
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with Diana Ross Greatest Hits in background

Saturday evening two Sat'days ago (Jan 8) was fine. We went to Spaghetti Machine. It was a-ok, but I hadn't had chance to tell Chip my feelings by then. But we were still in a good mood + I was able to eat!

Then we went to see "A star is born." Good for us lovers. I was not able to say much afterwards. I was hungry. We