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[orange]Drive down Sepulveda to find IXL and
realize its too far to drive to work.[/orange]
Stop at Burger Master for coffee and
[orange]read current MSJ. All pretty technical,[/orange]
even for me, but perhaps it's just today.
Drive back to Mondrian...
[pink]It takes 25 min just from Olympic/Sepulveda + not scenic. TRAFFIC![/pink]

5:45 [blue]GOTTA GET PAST INFO IN ORDER
Before I can know what to do next...
Think about the problems...
So much info for last 3 years...
Work + social life are each other's bkgd/frgd...
So wanna show 'em against each other. COLOR?
Perhaps it's just important to see decisions?
No, because I need the history behind the decisions.[/blue]

6:15 To Panda Cafe. Bad food, bad music.

7:00 Go see [pink]Scandals at Beverly Center.
Another film cautioning me, like Dang Lies.
Why put time into relationships of risk?
What reward do I hope to get.
REMEMBER REWARD vs RISK?
What if anything shall I get from it?[/pink[
[blue]And with regard to notes about
relationships, I should destroy not
only because of security but also
because words don't capture such
emotional ideas, goals + feelings.[/blue]
[pink]Anyway, if I embrace the notion of
pointlessness of the relationships, then
I add weight to asking "Why live
in LA, SF, etc if not for the boys?"
These two add so little, and Seattle
has so much, except sunshine + warmth.
BIG QUESTION: WHAT TO DO
ON SATURDAY NIGHTS??[/pink]

10:30 To bed

TUES MAY 23 '89

LA 74° Seattle 60° .46" RAIN

7:15 Think ~LA. ------
[pink]Felt good about LA last trip[/pink] since I made
friends with guy I wouldn't have gone home
with had I not been drunk. [pink]This trip there
was no one at Spike, so I get a different
sense of LA on this trip, which is to see
if I like being alone here. At least it's clear
and sunny here. So let's just do what
I'd do in Seattle.[/pink] -----