(seq. 30)

if I am ever married, what she suffer'd for me, I shall for
another, believe me in such a case it will comfort me to think
I am paying the debt I owe.
I have not read much since I left you, but thought a great
deal . I began a tour with Brydone on our way here. but was
glad to leave him, as sick as myself, on board the Molly.
I am very much delighted with Mrs. Ward & her little Anne. Mrs
W. wish'd one to stay with her while in town. I should have been
glad in accepting her kind invitation to have enjoy'd her agreea -
ble society, but Papa, took me away from Grandpapa Bowens
& would not let me play with Betsy, so we thought I could not
with propriety, that we have no reason as we had to refuse in
P-. How does J- go on. in the old way, this day is exactly
a year since he left Beth'm in a violent passion, because
I rerurn'd him his letters, without saying farewell even to his
cousins. I know it was only to see me that he came to Beth'm.
Had I receiv'd & read his letters on a day which we devoted to
prayer, & without the knowledge of Mr. Van Vleck contrary to rules I should
have mark'd that as the greatest crime I ever committed in my
life. I wrote to Betsy yesterday & told her she might tell him
that he who dares not revisit the place where he was, in
some measure educated, on account of his ill conduct - should
never have my heart or hand. ---- ---- Do Aunt Lydia
write me by ev'ng packet. I shall be a great while here.
Tell me all you think about me &c &c. How is Mr W --
you may give my love to him, if you chuse. I can't send any love
to somebody, if I even wish'd it. because, he has enough already
Do give my comp'ts [compliments] to your Mama & Mr M. & Mrs
Gramon[?] & indeed to all.

Belive me I am yours with sincerity, I
know you do, for I would not tell as much as this
letter contains to but one person besides yourself.
Not Papa, it is too delicate a subject to speak to a parent about I mean a Father.
Mr Sam'l Greene will take this. Congratulate him on his
arrival at Providence, in my name.

[recto page]
Don't let Mr. G know of the
freedom, with which I've expresd my
sentiments --- ---
*[to go with verso page, bottom "I mean a Father"] I mean not that I would not tell Papa what I have said about Mr.
G but the sentence at the top of the 2d side