(seq. 19)

New Rochelle 7 mo. 7. 1839.

Admit to Aunt Mary

Dear Sister M.

I dreamed of you last night, what
think you, was it a good dream or a bad one. I am
sorry to say it was a bad one. I imagined myself at
home, & some one asked a favor of you, and you in a
sulky manner, argued the right of the request & seemed to
think it some one elses [liusings?]. Do not this dream
too frequently verified in your daily conduct towards those
who ask favors of you. Consider well dear sister, & if it ever has
been the [?]. Write to discontinue it for the future, Think whether
it makes you any happier or whether those around you are ren
dered more comfortably and if your answer to these enquiries is
yes; then by all means adhere to the practice, if, no; nev
er allow yourself to indulge in it again, for every
time you do, it only weakens you, and increases that
unhappy feeling, that you are not treated as well as
the rest. Rest assured Dear Sister that we all regard you
equally with the rest, but that particular trait in you charac
ter, we do dislike, I sincerely hope you may be enabled to command strength
to overpower it, so thus secure your own happiness as well as
that of those around you. Do not indulge anger towards
any one, for that will also make you unhappy. Suffer yourself
to think much about serious things and Deaths, for that will
strengthen you in doing well. Read the Bible and other good
books & spend your [bisine?] moments in commiting some good
piece as chapter to [memory?]. I learned two chapters in
the last weeks one was the 42 [Blane?]. Do you ever

Those cherry stones in the paper are out of a large sweet cherry nearly as large
as a plum. Please plant their and take good care of them and and merritt you may have
the breed if they should live. they are the best I ever ate.

I am thy affectionate sister

S.B.A.