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to talk to. I felt very comfortable with him. He can't though, get all that hard but that's the way it's always been with him. The best thing was his huggability and his bigness. We slept together and I awoke around 10 and showered and got back to bed. I slept a bit but then just lie there and thought, thought how much better this was than Scott's. I also was very much at peace and relaxed. I held him and this went on till nearly 2:00 when we finally got up. He is so big and just right. He fits my character. I can hold onto him and feel good. I suppose because otherwise I know him and like him. He is on the same wavelength approximately as I am. His face is not exactly what I like because his eyebrows are too busy. But he is a man about my age. I do not feel I am a man. I am not big enough. I need to gain 20 pounds and in the right places. I am considering the advice of a health spa to improve my body.