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Decide to lay it on the line for Bill today...What do I have to lose? Really nothing, because at this point I'm not capable of creating PAC, and if that is so, I amy as well figure I'll be fired so on. I just can't do it. There is no spark.

And if I don't get to do PAC, I can travel, move somplace where there are MEN, not boys, and where there is SUN.

I can work on human things: cooking, games/strategy, music.

I can find someplace new + exciting. Someplace where I can have friends at work.

I wrote that memo, 1 page. Took nearly all morn + aft. Then came home, made dinner, cut up WSJ, watched "Man For all Seasons" about Sir Thomas Moore, and analyzed Gold Option Prices.

6:30 Reread memo.