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SUN MAY 28
VERY RAINY

Think + pray in bed. -----

[blue]Decide to [pink]just keep[/pink] Fall '83, and
not write much about it, since
it was covered in August '84.
Keep it because it covers deep feelings
and is actually pretty well written.

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But go through Win '84 + shred it
since it doesn't do deep feelings.
Check how well it's covered by Aug '84. Fine.
And I want to destroy my recount of
personal emotions about Bob. Words
can hardly do justice expressing those feelings.
And our relationship was so influenced by
alcohol + drugs, indeed the whole env't, gay
lifestyle was so capricious + GAY.[/blue]
[pink]Interesting that I go thru this just after
seeing Bob at hospital. Helps me cope...[/pink]
[blue]I have 2 goals[/blue]

To have some reminder of the 83/84 period
To write about outstanding problems.

[blue]The Aug 84 review satifies the first.
And I start a Word doc on "Buying
a house."
Take 1982 Music Comp + Tonality books to storage.[/blue]
Wrap Dad's present.
[blue]Contine with 1985 book some more.[/blue]

5:45 [orange]To Mom + Dad's for his B'day.[/orange]
[pink]Watch Places in the Heart on NBC.[/pink]

12:00 Go home

MON MAY 29
RAINY MEM'L DAY

8:00 -----
[blue]Finish off Winter '84 Diary. All Shreded.
Write a bit on May trip to SF, and
July trip to S. Cal too, using notes.

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Next I need to go through Fall '83
and see if anything from it should be added
To doc on "Where to Live/buyin a house."[/blue]

12:30 Gym + QFC. (PAC: Chest)

5:00 [blue]Read through Fall '83 highlights and
I don't want to add anything to "Where
to live" because I hadn't even made a
nice env't at Creswick yet,[/blue] redecorating
as I did in January. [blue]Summary in
August '84 is ok for Fall '83.

5:45 Pull out [from?] Aug '84 staple the analysis of LA, SF, etc
and also staple Review; Two packets.
With these + remaining Diaries, I can review to present[/blue]