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Thur Aug 28th '86

Misc

8:30 Go to gym

11:00 Update spec for keyboard. Start on formula bar stuff. Write progress report.

5:45 Go to chiropractors for lower back. Dinner. Misc. Think about going to San Juans with Michael. Of course.

But Sat Sun

be home for Sunday at Neighbors

Spend Mon with Bill. Further into future

room avail Sat Night at Rosario

Or Sun Mon

Couldn't go out Sat night or Sun night

spending Sat on outing would seem odd (one-day)

Read Programmers at Work. Think awhile. Go out to Neighbors. I feel very nervous and ill at ease because of Bill. First, just driving around made me feel bad. Catching glimpses of similar trucks. But why is this? I know I don't want him for a boyfriend. Perhaps I am just disappointed because he is someone I like but not someone I love. And he isn't infatuated with me. (But I'm not infatuated with his skinny legs either.)

Bill was saying he thinks people who do drugs are fundamentally depressive personalities. And this time of year adds to it. I hope Amitryptiline works.

And theres the fact that I just don't convey a sense of fun. I don't have that many friends and I'm don't know how to change this, but I'm willing to spend time on friendships. But perhaps I just get bored if they aren't sexual relationships.