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Fri Aug 29 '86

Cloudy morning

Wake up with that depressed feeling. Feeling nervous, but I'm not sure about what.

Maybe I should do some traveling starting soon. But where? Who with? I want more enthusiasm. I want more excitement and not disappointments.

8:30 Go to work. Call Michael Failla + tell him about Rosario reservation. Call Bill and discuss what we'll do this weekend. I tell him Michael has invited me out and that I'd like to get together with Bill one day. Then he says he won't promise that so I turn around and say maybe I can invite you. What a schmuck-head. So I called Michael to call him and he said OK so I called back Bill and he said he'd consider it.

Work on formula bar sketch. List why not to stay at MS.

4:45 Leave to get glasses.

5:30 Go home. Try to call Bill but line is busy. Misc. I feel very nervous like I did last Sunday. Get a scotch. At this point, I feel like I don't know what to do about Bill. I like him a lot, but I hurt a lot because we're not compatible. And he's not what I want.