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So why do I hurt. I hurt the Saturday night and Sunday after he arrived because he didn't come home with me that Friday night. So it's from the start. We're sexually incompatible.

Try again. Nobody answers. Dinner. Call again. Bill wants to go, so I say I'll have to call Michael about the weather, because he's concerned about being in the middle of a mess.

7:30 Call Michael. Decides against it. Does not want to be third man.

7:45 Call Bill + tell him

1) 10% chance of rain. Not pretty weather.

2) Michaels decision

And I don't care to be out on the water for so long anyway. Two hours from Locks to Rosario. Just on the basis of the two-hour trip, and my reluctance to spend a Saturday night with Michael, how did I get myself into that mess. There was simply no doubt. I wanted to see the Islands! But its 60 miles just to Rosario. Maybe fun but not with Michael, at least not now.

8:30 So I'm free of that chaos. Now what to do with Bill or anyone? Rest + think.

10:45 Decide to tell him that sex should not be part of our relationship.

11:00 Go to sleep.