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And then Bruce Placko showed up and that always makes me nervous, but he said "welcome back." And then I felt like I didn't want to leave alone, though I knew I should get back to growing more which I should probably do myself awhile. But I sorta wanted to shower so I went to stall to get a hard on since jock strap makes it so small. But no one I appreciated was around. At least I got a shower. As I left I nervously talked with someone who had been eyeing me who again I didn't really care for. I Feel bad that I'm not able to respond to them as they may wish, but at least they are pleasant, unlike that black guy last night.

So nothing wrong, but I felt on edge. It went away as I read more of Out on a Limb awhile.

7:00 Out to dinner. Bad gas aches. Read Chap 5, Out on a Limb. Back to Room. Read Chap 6, David + Shirley on Beach

9:00 Call Bill to tell him I'm in SF but he's at library, so tell Dave. And I don't feel so bad since he went to Portland for weekend without telling me...Dave + I talked about Dignity + Shirley + CS Lewis

9:15 Then I drove to airport to settle weekend rate + set up weekly. But was this stupid? I couldn't just made it weekly till now. And at the end of the week, next Saturday, I could go weekly for two more days, Sunday + Monday morning! So if I don't stay till Tuesday morning I've wasted $42! And even if I do stay I have not given myself the flex'y! So now I know I must stay thru Mon?

10:15 Feeling upset, go buy saline solution and a card for Henry.