FL14378909

[MS 1203]

 

Parramatta 6th February 1822

Revd Sir

It is with feelings of deep contrition and heartfelt sorrow, I thus approach you, lest in consequence of the unpardonable and [unwarrantable?] breach made in your confidence on Monday, after the humane and christian [indecipherable] caution you lately gave me, and indeed I had [flattered?] myself from the efforts [effects?] produced on me by that [advice?] nothing would induce me either to [indec] or to

go into company [lest?] in an evil hour I was

unfortunately solicited to accompany a [wedding? no]

party I had formerly known while in [indecipherable]

H​​​​ospital, I invited [Isac?] to accompany me

who I am equally sorry for with myself, this 

[lead?] to the inebriated state in which you saw 

me. If I can only obtain your pardon and [forgiveness?] I will not only study to avoid the 

repetition of such conduct in future but will guard against such pernicious habits as the ruin of my immortal soul the ruin of my constitution and the consequent result of [bringing?] me to disgrace and infamy and as the harbinger of all those ills which have led me to my present degraded state and had I not taken