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San Souci April 3. 1888 Greenville. So. Ca.
My darling husband 16 months to day you
left me every moment have you been in my
thought, I have labored to honor your name
& memory; & prove my love, veneration, & admiration
for you. Oh! my husband I always trust
you above all men; that no one was so good, so
noble as you. but I did not know your full
value, until I had lost you. Oh I do not see
how I ever would have left you for one moment
unless compelled so to do. Oh! how I regret [that]
I did not devote all my time to you & consider
it the greatest pleasure on earth. I regret
that I read light works, & did not listen to
the reading you delighted in: 50 years was
too short a time to live with one of the noblest
men God ever made. I pray God to give me
an easy death be supported by Him in my
dying hour. My sins forgiven, I may go where
we are & never to part from you again & [tell]
you how much I miss & [illegible] you. I regret ever
having made you unhappy. My blessed husband
how I love you & [illegible] your loss, [illegible] [illegible] [illegible]
I have been in [illegible] [illegible] for 16 months
reading your [loving] letters o me & your journal
& autobiography: I would but hardly have
existed without them. God bless you my dar
husband, pray for me. that I [illegible] be a repentant
sinner & for the sake of Jesus taken be you in heaven