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15^th June 1852
Savannah

My dearly beloved Tootee

It does seem so strange all the events
which are crowding on me. Who would have supposed one
month ago that I would be in Savannah on my way North
or more or as much wonderful is the intelligence contained
in the enclosed letters. May all be ordered for our good. If
I am permitted to meet your beloved Father - it will will [sic]
of itself reward me for what I have suffered in leaving
home. How merciful to me my hearing that the loved
children were well, on the 9^th & 11^th. What is to be the end
of all these unexpected events God! alone knows. I look
forward with hope but with a trembling heart ---

I wrote you a long letter by Middleton - I hope all things
went safe. The Oznaburgs will go in the next
trip of the Planter - let Lady have 15 or 20 yds. ---
I do not think more can be spared - Tell the negros [sic] if
I live to see their Master I hope your letters will enable
me to give a favorable report not only of their health
but of their conduct - It grieves me that dear Butler
is left alone in that Country. - May God! protect him
I will suffer more when your Father is obliged to return
to California - Oh! the misery this anxiety costs me.
My beloved child I hardly think your blessed Father
will be able to visit you. I can only hope this visit of his
may not portend coming misfortune. I have had no
letter from him or Butler. Possibly these letters will be
received by you. Of course you will open them
& read all they may have communicated.

William is a devoted son to me. I cannot but regret the lonely
state such devotion subjects you to. But for my coward heart