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Mon Aug 11 '86

Wake up. Very unmotivated and sad, scared & confused emotionally. But realize I can start to put something together, starting today.

Why oh why can't I find someone (more than one) who excite me, who I relate to?

I must work on that and have something to contribute by studying music or whatever. Start that today, and don't put work first again. I'm getting older, and I want friends.

9:15 Hot tub at Body Nautilus. J/O by self.

Go to Bellevue to buy music and shower curtains.

Go home & listen to music but it really has no fulfilling feeling. Some of it is fun. But selecting music isn't my forte or desire. It never feels great.

Put up curtain.

Lunch at home.

Get quote for new glasses on B'way.

Go to Sears for new quote & silver platters for more CDs.

Back to order glasses on B'way.

Down to Pioneer Square to look

for posters & dining room art.

buy Seattle Vice Tshirt

and 2 jazz CD's at Budd's.

Look for Da Vinci's on 1st

All stuff been on to do list long time.

Home for dinner. No protein. Just potatoes beans & bread.

8:00 Out to Body Nautilus for tubs. See Kevin from beach.

To Broadway Video for chip off old block.

Home & write up today.

Feels good to reduce list to manageable level and be done w/music shopping.