May 12, 1865 pg 3

don't want me without all the love
I am capable of giving, and if another
gains that, why I can't help it, and
you will of course consider yourself
well out of the affair. Time will
prove us both. By the way -- I had a
fortune given me the other night. you
will find it on this slip of paper. -- is
it a warning? I don't know how to apply
it, help me.

I came back last week. The
people seemed quite gald to see me
after my three weeks absence. Lue
says I grew pretty (you think there is
chance enough?) and quiet. Many things
combined to render the latter true.
But the worst trouble I have now
is to find another boarding place.
These people don't want us any longer
and I can't think of any body who
does. Truly it's an unpleasant state
of affairs to be without a home
when love or money won't make one.