Diary

That area is very nice out there but there's no gay community. Beach doesn't mean much to me but the rolling hills do...

Lunch at KFC. Wait for bus @Charthouse. [pink]It's funny that I thought of W. Hollywood as so fun but really it's just been Cheers (in 88) + Spike (in 89) and WHAC is nice. and I've met guys there, but there's got to be more. Should I have gone to tea dance in Silverlake Sunday? Perhaps, but this way I had that old Sunday WH feeling to remember, unlike last trip.[/pink]

1:00 Up to Museum, modeled after classic Roman Villa. Antiquities + Western European Art. [orange]Note how old (50's +) some artist were when doing these masterpieces.[/orange] [pink]And difference between original + poster especially for the grapes + berries w/ants![/pink]

4:15 Back to car + [pink]drive to SM, to San Vicente, to Wilshire, to SM Blvd, through West Hollywood ! --> PUTTING IT ALL BEHIND ME, I FELT. Up La Brea to Hollywood Blvd (ugh, and this is where Jaime lives), to Western, down to Fountain, and out to Sunset. IN SILVERLAKE NOW.[/pink]

5:45 Guarantee resv at Boneventure. IT TAKES [pink]OVER 1 HR BEACH TO SILVERLAKE.[/pink] TO BEUADRY TO DOWNTOWN, SWING BY BONAV. [pink]BACK TO SILVERLAKE WHILE DAYLIGHT.[/pink] DRIVE AROUND. [pink]STILL VERY EAST SAN DIEGO.[/pink] SEE IT ALL, EVEN OLD MAC'S, AND FIND DETOUR + GAUNTLET AND BODYBUILDER GYM. CHINESE DINNER.

[pink]OUT TO GRIFFITH PARK (NOT FAR!) + LOS FELIZ. LOS FELIZ IS NICE, HAS PARK, GOOD BARS! [orange]CLOSE TO DOWN TOWN TOO...[/orange] SEE BIG FIRE NEAR CBS[/pink]...

(WONDER WHEN WAS I "CHASED DOWN BY COCKSUCKER" 1977 OR 1981?)

BACK DOWNTOWN, GETTING DARK, CHECKIN. SMALL ROOM.

9:00 ----IT WAS INTERESTING TO SEE HOW [pink]QUALITY OF NEIGHBORHOODS DECLINES WEST TO EAST.[/pink]

9:15 Look at more of [orange]"Inter Multi" Thought Pieces.[/orange]

9:45 Head out. Get car. McD for Hot Fudge. SO [pink]Mexican[/pink] all through here. I don't fit in. But Los Feliz would be nice

[pink]See Detour, Gauntlet II, and OneWay. None Busy. Am I into leather + dark bars. Gauntlet is brother bar of SF Eagle "One has chainlink fence, very low lighting."[/pink]

Detour has saw dust on the floor (No Alcohol) 1. So I guess this is not the gay neighborhood I took up with or to give in

1. If its not SF West Hollywood or Silverlake (nor Portland or UBC of course) then I guess its San Diego that will help me out next winter.

11.30 To bed. And remember I not great in clothes no broad shoulders not stocky in my tall frame. So that another reaon to avoid W. Hollywood or LA in general...

THU MAY 25 '89 7:15-------- B'fast atop Red Tower. Yes there are lots of gorgeous men around W. Hollywood but from this vantage point in Silverlake, I accept that I cannot live near them. What would I do with them? What would I do by myself? OC was great because it was country and I got to see that I wouldn't spend time with people who live in L.A. It just seems so tiresome & tasteless although there is a sort of runabout, fun carefree energy about it. But sustainability? If I ever fear I've missed out in guy life, I'm crazy because I've had lots of experience, and more than most people. ABQ & Chip, LA & OC, BBS & BSH, Seattle & Bob & skiing & TTourists & Prons [?], etc....

SD in 85 didn't work since Bruce didn't come visit me. If he had I'd have been here less than frequently. I don't want to make friends or go home WITH ANYONE OUT OF TOWN UNLESS I FEEL THEY COULD COME VISIT ME IN SEATTLE. This on top of usual physical & social req'ts

9:30 GOTC photograph Silverlake & its bars. It's really quite a Castro. To gym. Body Builders. Shoulders. Fine. Just as I was finishing, I meet RANDY. I was not looking for fun, but it found me. Noted Parallel to Easton's & Jaime.

Back to hotel feeling relaxed. Pack [yellow]Hmm: Just as I was seeing him first time, I remember, I was thinking "I'd rather take a risk than take up a sure thing."[/yellow]

[pink]Rik Calista, etc, etc...[/pink]

Leave. Lunch on [?] at [pink]Louises Pasta.[/pink] Apr Tufts. Gasoline. Drop car. Just make it to plane

3:30 [orange]Finish Int Mult. media,[/orange] Read some [orange]VisDisp of Q Data.[/orange] Dinner. Get car. Go home [pink]via boat. Pump bilge. Run engine[/pink] Unpack. ----- [pink]Mom + Dad call ~ Meg's trial.[/pink] Murphy Brown

11:45 To bed

FRI MAY 26 '89 RAINY

7:30 ----- Get cash. ---- Get mail. ----

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1:30 To Library for Infoworld + UL. [blue]Coming back, stop at storage to read Reviews of summer '82 - Jan 83 (about half of what written in 85). Just to proof it for consistence + style.[/blue]

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7:30 Pay bills. WSW. Look at Getting Started with [orange]Word 4.0.[/orange] It is [orange]668K[/orange] so it won't fit, with a System File with lots of fonts, on 1 disk! Also it's slow doing table in README. For these reason's plus VL Scroen II is slow for P/E + Yield I should play with Hypercard I should play with Mult.finder

I think it's [orange]time for a new Mac IIcx![/orange]

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SAT MAY 27 '89 VERY RAINY

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Dad not feeling well. Postpone B'day. Go get globe. [orange]See Mac IIs. Write note against.[/orange]

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[pink]Bob calls from hospital.[/pink] Hard to believe.

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Md Pk SMB. Legs. Denial, pain, acceptance.

4:00 Goto [pink]Swedish. TP. Artwalk.[/pink] Talk. Eat

5:45 [pink]Drive around aimlessly. Home + reread "Fall 83"[/pink] Golden Girls too.

SUN MAY 28 VERY RAINY

Think + pray in bed. -----

[blue]Decide to [pink]just keep[/pink] Fall '83, and not write much about it, since it was covered in August '84. Keep it because it covers deep feelings and is actually pretty well written.

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But go through Win '84 + shred it since it doesn't do deep feelings. Check how well it's covered by Aug '84. Fine. And I want to destroy my recount of personal emotions about Bob. Words can hardly do justice expressing those feelings. And our relationship was so influenced by alcohol + drugs, indeed the whole env't, gay lifestyle was so capricious + GAY.[/blue] [pink]Interesting that I go thru this just after seeing Bob at hospital. Helps me cope...[/pink] [blue]I have 2 goals[/blue]

To have some reminder of the 83/84 period To write about outstanding problems.

[blue]The Aug 84 review satifies the first. And I start a Word doc on "Buying a house." Take 1982 Music Comp + Tonality books to storage.[/blue] Wrap Dad's present. [blue]Contine with 1985 book some more.[/blue]

5:45 [orange]To Mom + Dad's for his B'day.[/orange] [pink]Watch Places in the Heart on NBC.[/pink]

12:00 Go home

MON MAY 29 RAINY MEM'L DAY

8:00 ----[blue]Finish off Winter '84 Diary. All Shreded. Write a bit on May trip to SF, and July trip to S. Cal too, using notes.

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Next I need to go through Fall '83 and see if anything from it should be added To doc on "Where to Live/buyin a house."[/blue]

12:30 Gym + QFC. (PAC: Chest)

5:00 [blue]Read through Fall '83 highlights and I don't want to add anything to "Where to live" because I hadn't even made a nice env't at Creswick yet,[/blue] redecorating as I did in January. [blue]Summary in August '84 is ok for Fall '83.

5:45 Pull out [from?] Aug '84 staple the analysis of LA, SF, etc and also staple Review; Two packets. With these + remaining Diaries, I can review to present[/blue]

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