Diary

WALK BACK WITH TROY [insert]HAVING NICE "GET TO KNOW YOU" TALK[/insert] TO BOB + BILL WHO ARE PRACTICING SIGNING...

3:15 EAT + TALK ABOUT MY ADVENTURE. CLEAN UP IN THE WATER + LEAVE. LONG HIKE. VERY PRETTY DAY AT BEACH.

4:00 LEAVE FOR HOME U/A 805. GET OUT OF SUIT AND OFF TO EAT AT ROUND TABLE PIZZA, BUT NO MULTISERVING SALD BAR, SO WENDY'S AND THEN WAY BACK TO FROZEN YOGURT. (SIT AND TALK AWHILE. NICE TIME.) AND THEN WAY BACK HOME. LONG HOT SHOWER. MISC. WRITE UP TODAY IN HERE.

8:30 WHAT TO DO NEXT. CAN'T GET SF WEATHER REPORT.

9:00 CALL TROY BYRNE. FIRST YEAR RN STUDENT IN CHULA VISTA. VERY SINCERE. "FROM ONE FRIEND TO ANOTHER, I LOVE YOU" KEEP IN TOUCH WITH HIM...

9:30 [highlight]READ GODEL, EXCHER, BACH: MY-PUZZLE[/highlight]

10:15 GOTO BED

TUES, DEC 30 '86

8:00 GETUP, MISC. BOB + BILL TAKE ME TO AIRPORT.

10:00 FEELS GOOD TO BE DEPARTING THEIR COMPANY, BUT [highlight]WHAT DO I DO NOW? NOT SD ON NEW YEARS. EITHER SF OR LA: [/end highlight]

- SF WEATHER WED PARTLY CLOUDY _ RAIN. - HIKE IN HILLS EAST OF SD. - HAVEN'T BEEN TO PROBE LATELY. - DICK HAS INVITED ME TO STAY. [group]BUT SHOULD I ALTERNATE SC + SF SO THAT BACH HAS EQUAL TIME? LA, SF, Palm Spr, SF, SD... QUESTION IS WHETHER I NEED TO DO IT BY DEC 31! [/end group] [group]DO I WANT TO BE AT DICK'S, RECOVERING FROM DRUGS, ON JAN 1... OR EVEN BE IN LA ON JAN 1. BEACH/GYM/MOVIE/ETC. COULDN'T BE COMFY READING GEB THEN. [/end group] GOTO GYM TODAY + THURSDAY.

11:15 DECIDE THERE'S NO RUSH TO GET TO SF TODAY. I HAVE NO PLACE TO GO, NOBODY EXPECTING ME, AND I CAN DO GYM TUES + FRI.

AND IT FELT GOOD TO GET AN AVIS CAR FOR A DAY AND HEAD OUT EAST TO THE CUYMACA STATE PARK. WENT TO MUSEUM AND PARK HDQTRS FOR MAP OF HIKING TRAILS AND HAD LUNCH AT RESTAURANT WITH BITCHY WAITRESS, DEDE, BUT FOOD WAS GOOD.

2:45 OUT TO STONEWALL MINE + TAKE LAKE HIKE BUT LAKE IS DRY SO DID IT FAST.

3:15 THEN HIKED UP TO STONEWALL MTN PEAK. WHAT A BREATHTAKING VIEW. IT WAS ACTUALLY QUITE SCARY AT FIRST BEING ON SUCH A POINT ALONE. BUT THEN I SAW KIDS COMING UP THE SOUTH FACE OF ROCK + FELT HUMBLED. THEN OTHERS CAME TOO. SO HIKING DOWN I WAS THE LAST BUT NOT ALONE.

5:00 LEAVE TO TAKE A LOOK AT THE NORTH END OF THE LAKE JUST BEFORE DARKNESS THEN GET SNACK AT STORE + CALL AIRLINES FOR AVAILABILITY OF FLIGHTS. UNITED HAD ONE AT 7:25. I RESERVED IT.

6:30 BUT WANTED TO EAT AT WENDY'S FIRST SO I COULDN'T MAKE THE FLIGHT, WHICH I CHECKED WAS LEAVING ON TIME

7:00 AND IT DOESN'T COST ME ANYMORE TO GO IN THE MORNING SINCE I HAVE CAR HERE TILL THEN, PLUS

1) I CAN POSTPONE SF DECISION A BIT 2) I CAN GO OUT TO FLICKS COMEDY NIGHT 3) I CAN GET SF CAR IN MORNING AND POSSIBLY GET MORE DAYS OUT OF IT.

7:30 NOW THERES A STORM COMING INTO N. CALIFORNIA TOMORROW SO SF WILL HAVE CLOUDS + RAIN, BUT SD FORECAST SAYS ONLY CLOUDS PARTLY TOMORROW AND THEN SUNNY ON NEW YEARS DAY. [comment]BUT I DON'T WANT NEW YEARS EVE IN SD, OR LA (BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO BE THERE [VI?])[/end comment]

7:45 BUT[arrow to numbered list at 7:00 with comment "WEAK REASONS"] I FEEL FUNNY GETTING ROOM HERE FOR 1 NIGHT + THEN LEAVING IN THE SUNNY MORNING FOR ANOTHER CITY CLOUDED OVER SO I CALLED PSA ONE LAST TIME AND THEY HAVE 1 $55 SEAT AT 9:00. (CHANGE FROM SHORTS TO PANTS) SEE FIREWORKS OVER THE CITY. INTENSE.

8:00 REFUEL CAR, NOTING $3.56 AND DRIVE TO AIRPORT DECIDING I WANT TO GO TONITE, RATHER THAN GET MOTEL HERE, RETURN CAR, AND SAVE $$ ON CHEAPER FLIGHT. (WRITE UP TODAY)

8:45 SUMMARY

1) I DON'T WANT TO BE IN SD FOR NEW YEARS EVE SINCE a) I WAS STAYING WITH BILL, BUT WOULD FEEL AWKWARD NOW b) I WANT TO EITHER BE HOME OR WITH SOMEONE SPECIAL. SF MAY BE HOME.

2) I DON'T WANT TO BE IN LA FOR NEW YEARS EVE SINCE I DON'T WANT TO RISK BEING AT DICKS ON NEW YEARS DAY... COULDN'T READ GEB THERE

3) I DON'T WANT TO STAY TONITE SINCE I KNOW I WANT TO BE IN SF TOMORROW NIGHT, AND IT IS BETTER TO WAKE UP THERE TOMORROW AND WOULD BE HARD TO LEAVE SUNNY WARN SD TOMORROW MORNING. PLUS I PREFER DRIVING INTO SF AT NITE.

4) I WANT TO GOTO GYM TOMORROW ESPECIALLY MUSCLE SYSTEMS.

5) I'M GOING BACK TO CLOUDY/RAINY SEATTLE SO I SHOULDN'T MIND RAIN IN SF. IT IS WINTER

9:00 GET ON PLANE & GO. AT LEAST TOMORROW EVENING MAYBE I CAN GO UP TO TWIN PEAKS, AND PARTY AFTER MIDNITE.

9:15 READ OMNI NEXT 2 YEARS

10:30 READ MORE OF FORTUNES 50 MOST EXCITING BUSINESS PEOPLE, WHILE PLANE WAITS FOR SPACE AT TERMINAL

11:00 CALL FOR RESERVATION AT BECK'S, GET AVIS GRAND AM. [highlight]DRIVE TO THE CITY. HOME?[/end highlight] CHECK IN TO [?]IO AGAIN. UNPACK AND REGROUP A BIT.

12:30 GOTO BED

WED, DEC 31 '86

8:15 WAKEUP. RETHINK DECISION TO BE IN SF.

8:30 GETUP. MISC. BREAKFAST AT CHURCH ST STATION. BUY SUPPLIES + GROCERIES.

11:00 START LAUNDRY. PUT STUFF AWAY, MISC.

11:30 DRY LAUNDRY.

[highlight]TRY TO READ GEB, [/highlight] BUT FRIENDLY PHILIPINO HEATER REPAIRMAN WANTS TO TALK, WHICH IS FINE BUT NOT REALLY WHAT I WAS CONCENTRATING ON. THEN OLDER ONE COMES TOO AND I DECIDE TO LOOK ON, BUT THEN SHAVE, ETC AFTER THAT I TRY TO READ AGAIN.

12:15 FINALLY HE LEAVES FOR LUNCH ! [group][highlight]AND I FEEL I WISHED I WERE FRIENDLIER TRY TO DO THAT TODAY WITH OTHERS[/end highlight][/end group] GET CLEAN LAUNDRY. HAVE SNACK. CALL MUSCLE SYSTEMS

12:45 GOTO CASTRO FOR GIFT CENTER TICKET LUNCH + READ B.A.R. BUY SOME COLORED HANES T SHIRTS NOT MUCH SUCCESS SHOPPING. HEAD HOME. NOT A VERY HIGH FEELING.

3:15 GOTO FLEUR COFFEE HOUSE FOR ESPRESSO TO WAKE UP AND READ GEB CHAPTER II, BUT ON SECOND PAGE IS A "TRY IT," WHICH I DON'T FEEL LIKE ENGAGING IN. SO HEAD FOR MUSCLE SYSTEMS WITH A BUZZ

3:45 HAPPEN TO SEE BOB LAMOTTO IN SHOWER. NICE TO TALK AGAIN, BUT I'M SLOW. WORKOUT + TALK W/JEFF NATKIN.

6:00 LEAVE FOR BECK'S HAVING ARRANGED TO CALL JEFF FOR DINNER W/BILL TOO. SHOWER, TRY ON OUTFITS, MISC. TALK W/JEFF. MORE MISC.

7:45 GOTO JEFF'S. JEFF IS A LITTLE STRANGE, BUT NICE CONDO, AND I SHOULDN'T JUDGE SOMEONE OUT OF A JOB. BILL COMES OVER TOO. NICE, EVEN THOUGH PROBLEM 1 1/2 yrs AGO.

8:15 OUT TO DRINKS + DINNER AT MAX DINER AT 3RD + FOLSOM, SHRIMP SALAD + MASH TATERS, PRETTY GOOD TIME BUT I WAS QUIET TOWARD THE END + THEY HAD FUN. OK...

10:30 HEAD FOR GIFT CENTER. RUN INTO BOB LAMOTTO. DANCE. SPEND EVENING WITH HIM. NICE TIME. NICE MEETING HIS FRIENDS + CELEBRATING. LANE + JIM + SHORT JAP DENNIS + BLACK AL (ATARI). TROJAN WARRIORS.

[grouped]IT WAS A VERY DIFFERENT TIME THAN TWO YEARS AGO, WHEN I KNEW NO ONE AND MET FITZ PATRICK WHO LIVES HERE STILL, ACCORDING TO PHONE BOOK.[/end grouping] [grouped][highlight]ALSO SAW BILL SAYER WITH SOME UNATTRACTIVE GUY. BOB LATER SAID SAWYER + [K?]ROPF SPLIT A MONTH AGO.[/end grouping[/end highlight] [grouped]SAW [T?]UAN WHO LIVES ACROSS STREET FROM ME IN SEATTLE. HE'S TIRED OF SEATTLE TOO, AND MAY MOVE.[/end grouping] IT WAS NICE TO SEE GOOD-LOOKING MEN. TOOK ELEVATOR TO THE TOP. FUN. DANCED. GOOD MUSIC. HAD ABOUT FIVE VODKA TONICS + TWO COFFEES. ! [grouped]LEFT AT 3:00 JUST BEFORE ENTERTAINMENT BUT GOT TO SEE [highlight]BILL SAWYER LEAVING WHICH PROMPTED BOB GO MENTION SPLITUP.[/end highlight][/end grouping]

THUR, JAN 1 '87

3:00 LEFT WITH BOB LAMOTTA TO HIS HOUSE. SMALL PLACE IS SAN BRUNO. NICE. BUT I DIDN'T WANT TO FUCK HIM SINCE I DON'T FEEL STRONGLY ABOUT HIM, AND HE'S NOT CUTE, AND I DIDN'T WANT HIM TO FUCK ME BECAUSE HE'S NOT ENOUGH FOR ME. SO WE PLAYED AWHLE [ARVD?] EVENTUALLY [T/O?]'D EACH OTHER. ALSO HE'S A [highlight]SLOPPY WET KISSER. YUCKO... TOLD HIM IF THAT'S WHAT HE WANTS, I'M NOT IT.[/end highlight] [margin]CARMEN [A?]ABANERA.[/margin] BUT HE'S A GOOD GUY, GOOD FRIEND AND I [highlight]WANTED TO HAVE SEX ONCE WITH HIM.[/end highlight]

5:30 TO SLEEP.

11:00 WAKE UP. CLEAN UP. PRWE OVER TO OCEAN TO EAT AT NICKS. WAITRESS LOOKED LIKE SHRLEY MCLAiNE SO WE ENDED UP TALKING ~ OUT ON A LIMB. [highlight]HE HAD LEVEL HEADED THINGS TO SAY BUT WE KEPT CONVERSATION GOING.[/end highlight] GOOD TABLE BY A CORNER WINDOW. VERY STORMY DAY. MISTY RAIN. DRIVE HOME TO HIS PLACE.

2:30 THEN I DROVE HOME. VERY RAINY FOGGY. DRAW A NICE HOT BATH AND ENDED SHAVING MY THIGHS ALL AROUND DOWN TO KNEE. CUTE.