Diary

Ryan. He said he thought there was no problem, but he hadn't had time to think about EDITX.

My desire to do EDITX on APS & El Paso is still there. I can say it's been very difficult for me to move on this since Apr 15. This is the fifth week of the 1/4. First 2 were spent with the RM switch & my birthday & trip to LA etc. & settling all of this. Then next wee 1/2 was thoughts on EDITX & my power working heavily on PET. Last week & 1/2 I was sick and finished PET & reading journals. So its been 3 weeks since writing when I thought I should push EDITX on APS, etc. But problem has been my own overall thoughts, finishing of PET, being sick, reading journals for desposition, and more work on the PET. Also TI was here 1/2 day.

I must start doing that push on APS. Only six weeks left! Also I want to sit in sun & work out 3 times a week before I go to L.A.

But I've also got a great deal of reading to do. I want to become learned. I have spent an average of 10 hours a week extra for MicroSoft. That is good cuz I want the money. But I have a lot of my own stuff to do in next few weeks. They must get done. Reading, exercising, sunning, APS, El Paso, getting EDITX transferred (which is going plenty fast), prayer, and doing a little for MSoft. I have been rushed this last 3 weeks since I miscalculated the PET mods. Make all [future?] estimates long. Take my time. It's not that important to me now. This is mid quarter. The first half has been ok, but a bit rushed. Now let's start the second. My pay is boosted to $500/week now too. Now move on to reading.

Monday morning, May 23

So I read from about 2:30 or 3 till 4. Then lunch then exercise. Then gas, etc. Talk w/ Peddle a bit. Then clean up & head for Santa Fe w/ Chip. We had good talk en route. About his moving out to Cal. What if I weren't going? What if I were staying here? Resolved he would start looking for job. He sort of wants to stay in laser research, but may change.

Ate dinner at Ramada Inn (expensive $16) and went to Senate. Still a nice place to go but it sure wouldn't be wo/ Chip. Then he drove home.

Next day church at 9:30. Movie ~ Renaissance. Then breakfast & I have to go get listing for Chuck. Good dump. Then ~ 12:45 to Chips & out to read till 3. Then just sit & think. Then lunch at Silviano's. Then 60 minutes + Ben Hur. Good movie. Then dinner at Church's. Then to bed. Good weekend - read, was spiritual, somewhat fun, good & relaxing. Thoughtful. Hm lacking [?] . & Cal more now.

Wednesday, May 25

On Monday May 23 felt I had a few hours of time to myself as I'd work overtime Friday aft from 3-7 and did not have this included in pay.

So I thought about what was happening w/ EDITX. Do I want to maybe sell outright to RM. I thought no after Tuesday. The big thing I considered was who might buy it. I considered different aspects then worked Monday aft & saw Hello Dolly that night at Chips. Then Tuesday morning, I started thinking again. My conclusion was that I would really like to work for myself + profit by it, but I don't want great responsibility at this time in my life, such as responsiblity for the employment of others, etc. I also considered the fact that I don't want to control that much now. If I had a lot of money,

all I would do is save it because I don't want to be involved in great ventures right now. I am young & I want to play now. However, I would like to get myself into a profiting position so that I would be in charge of myself, and would have right whatever money I did make. So I decided it would be right for me to draw up the summary chart on EDITX which APS wants.

So I took off to the ABQ Library to do that. I drew it up, then headed for Lunch. When I got back, I started to ask myself about all the time I have spent not on EDITX. I still believed as I did last year that everything through Apr of 76 was as it should be. Then I realized that Apr 15 to Apr 15, 77 was really a year, a productive year. An important time for me. I realized this much more