Diary

RM to have it so they could finally control how much I work on it, etc. I would have no interest in it other than as my pet thing to work on. So, I must try to figure out what I think it's worth. If very little, then sell it.

If I had SOS why would I get EDX and remember I am the pres of a business or someone who holds the purse strings. My computer guys are supposed to be developing programs & data. Why do you need a complex editor for that? I don't want my guys on the phone all the time to you. If they do need special capabilities, you can have them. And other people are doing this too so you get the benefit of their suggestions too.

But I ask myself, what have I myself put into or wanted to put into EDITX. Nothing.

It is dissimilar to SOS. In trying to sell it & get people to try it out they may complain about this. like the F & S switch around or different characters for different things in Alter mode. One could try to make it very similar to SOS but then you get problems in making it better. And this even stands in the way of new customers. They want to have an editor which is very similar to that on other [DEC System] tens. Smart! 4/2001

You cannot start out a project which is an improvement or refinement. It simply will not make money.

Are there any reasons why it would be better to let RM have it and just work on it. I would be simply involved in profit sharing of the company like everyone else. I would not be a special guy there. I'd be like everyone else. It's true I would have an extra $40 to $50k but

That would just be good compensation for my work in the past. Sort of a nest egg to sit on a while. I can get a house. I'll still have my work and I can still try to create a good role for myself. The other thing is that I still don't really know what I'm doing & I want to be more of a learner now. I don't want to worry and spend too much of my time thinking. I would be wanting just to say "screw it" sometimes. It is easier to say that than than to direct profits from a product. It would be a lot easier life.

Also I really don't know R & M that well. You should know your business partners before you get into contractual relations with them.

My special problem is that I don't want to move as fast as Bill & Paul right now in work. I want to spend my years 24 to 27 or 28

without too much work. Actually that is much too long. Maybe just 24 to 25 and then go to H.B.S then. It is somewhat true what Bill says about lots of guys my caliber, my age are doing med school and law school now. I personally think that idea sucks. It is appropriate, I think, to work a year (not too hard) before one graduates and then to work very hard the year right after grad from college, when you're 23. Then the next year should be a good work year but only 40 hours a week or so. And no special profit incentive. Going to business school from 25 to 26, could be especially good. That is, I want to do bus school & I don't feel like getting particularly wealthy or involved in industry before I'm 30.

I've asked myself how it would feel to be in Bill's shoes.

I really would not know how to handle it. It is just to much money so young. Really wierd.

These are all Sat'days thoughts. Friday after the spa I ate & went out and had high old spring time at Foxes. I even tried to arrange orgy; was good at getting response. Fortunately it didn't go through. I ended up just going home w/ Randy. Just like old times, but that's enough of it for me.

So I spent 10:30 till 1:00 writing here & then snack and 1:15-2 thinking it over. Then home then call Chuck & lunch at 3:00. Final writing here at 3:45 is that I should spend all my time being enthusiastic in life & apply myself to whatever I want to do. Think it out so I won't ever say, I wish I'd done that.