Diary

bed Thurs + Friday. This of course put me behind in classes and the rest of the quarter was sort of hectic. Also the week after this on Tuesday I had to go to Santa Clara to fix a bug in basic, at AMI, which hindered me.

Nevertheless, the Sat + Sun I was recovering from the flu, I made some decisions about the future. Namely that if I stay to go to Law School, I must have a lover doing the same. That may be hard to come by but what the hell, I'll hope. Also on Sunday I decorated the apartment in my mind, and said to myself that I would spend the next few weekends looking for things, get an advance from Bill and then buy a lot of stuff during Spring Break. I felt ill at ease living on future money but did not think this one through.

Incidentally, I had by this time gone to gay people union meetings and had become turned off by it. Very few students go to it but fortunately Marvin Fox did. I met him though in EE 313

Digital IC's; he sat down next to me and put his leg + hand close to my leg. I sensed he was gay but since he was not spectacular I did not remember him from GPU. Well we got to know each other the following Tuesday, after class, as I had had little sleep the night before. We subsequently did problem sets together and they were difficult, especially since the material was covered in class and I am not a great note taker.

Well, then, since I'd spent 4 days at home, 2 days thinking about what I wanted to do with the apartment, I decided I would not shop the next weekend. So I studied the whole time; my fun was to be at a party on March 1. A group of gay students get together at the beginning of every month, on the first Monday of each month. I met one of the biggest, most muscular, smartest guy I'd ever known. It was interesting though that

I felt ill at ease he was too good. He was too strong, too funny, too much of a man. But it set me really thinking and Tuesday I spent nearly all day thinking what a plain tacky place I live in, and what I should do with it to make it sharp. I almost decided I could not live there anymore and I intended to find some other place. At any rate, since this happened on Tuesday I did not spend any time the following weekend on the apt. This was March 6 + 7 now. The next week was dead week and then finals week. I decided that for all practical purposes I should concentrate on school for the next two weeks which I did. I studied nearly straight through and finished on Sunday Mar 21, just in time. Anyway, I did go out with Glen Lundwell that weekend of the 5th + 6th. On Sat we went to some friend's house in the city and then out to Buzzby's where I met lo and behold, Shane

Dennis who is living here now. He says he wrote me but I never received anything. He and his friend were in Albuquerque at one time last October but he couldn't find me he said in the directory. I wonder... Anyway I got his number.

So through finals week I was set to do well, get all A's, and go on to law school. But things started to happen. First, I find out that I got a B in SWTCH THY even though I aced the final and got an A- on the midterm. Then I see that Quate won't accept my late homeworks, so I get a C. [Note inserted] EE 141 Electromagnetic Fundamentals? [/note] I do poorly in CS 144A Data Structures, though this is understandable since it was so boring; and I lost the homework program #4, so I just asked for a pass there. And in EE 275 (HOP) Computer as Lab Instrument, since I started late which was no real fault of my own, I got a B+. The only

class I got an A- in was EE 313, the most difficult of all. Also I took Switching Theory + Logic Design, EE 381A but homeworks were late due to starting class late + getting ill.

So my mind starts clicking, what is happening? I slowly realize, do I want to study computer engineering? The classes from here on out do not seem that intriguing. Also I don't, and never have wanted to study very advanced EE so that was out. Should I only get my Bachelors in EE? Is there any thing more I wanted to study to learn the actual material? No. I did have a program set up to study computer engineering, ie Data Structures, compilers, etc, but it occurred to me that I would only be doing it for the MS Stanford degree, not for the knowledge. Indeed I probably know at least half the material and what I don't I can learn by myself fairly quickly. I don't need to write endless computer programs to learn something obvious.

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