Diary

couple movies with Bill on Saturday night and read computer journals on Sunday besides the normal stuff of Sunday. It was restful.

Then came Thanksgiving. I started by celebrating on Wednesday night then I went out on Thursday at noon and gave thanks. I was alone for most of the afternoon and it made me feel lonely but I could really give thanks that most of the time I am not alone. I have good friends and good times and it's really nice. I ate at the Golden Inn alone, and made a friend to play pool with; then I went to Wellington's and met Mark who told me some things about myself, so that Friday I decided what I had to, and wanted to do, and what I wanted my character to be and so I started in Saturday (after a review of one hours) typing in "Basic."

That continued for two weeks until Thursday. Meantime I had one date with Rick Holland, a married guy, which taught me to stay away from them. The day after Rick (a Saturday) I got a letter

from ISI, stating that they may be acquired. I thought about this for a 1/2 day, Saturday, and then continued typing Saturday and Sunday (a little) and Mon-Thurs. Sunday was very lay back. Mon + Tuesday I wrote Tom my current feelings and reread it and mailed it. Wed I thought about what I was going to do and rounded up my thoughts for a little while. All other time I typed. Then Thursday evening I just went out dancing cuz the computer was down. Friday it was up and I finished and got listing for study. Friday - Monday I corrected it. I felt so bad with a stomach ache, I went to see Love + Death, a funny movie. It lightened me up and I worked correcting BASIC until Wed even and then went out and got layed by a mediocre. It taught me that I really wanted to wait for a Kevin (Playgirl's) to come along. I went to a MITS Christmas party Thursday and went out with Rick Holland on Friday to

finish off my Wellington experience. It was fun and that was that. I saw friends and kicked it off by going home with the best friend I'd made down there, Rick Holland. And it confirmed that I will not continue with married guys.

Then I ran into Leonard. He wanted to see me very badly so I went out with him Sat night for three hours. I learned that I want the person I wish to love to need me. It is a good feeling. Anyway Sunday I put a stop to the relation with Leonard. And I only talked to him Tuesday, just before I was ready to leave. Sunday, till Tuesday I worked as much as I could except for buying gifts, packing, etc. I got it all done and left for Seattle.

I got as far as Denver where I was put up in the Stapleton Plaza and then on Wednesday I finally flew to Seattle. The rest of theat day I figured out what to take, what to leave behind. Thursday was a good Christmas day, relaxed with relatives. Then Friday morning I worked on BASIC until relatives arrived

and I entertained them then they left and I got back to work for awhile. Then I had dinner, went to the Spa and then to the Dancinc Machine, where I saw Randy + Bob Ball. It was a fun night.

Saturday I finished examining BASIC and took it to Bill's and then went shopping for jeans and a new jacket. After that I came home ate dinner and just felt like thinking quietly for awhile so I did till ten, then I went to the DM, and had a good time with various people. But the last part was most interesting.

I asked John Paxton to dance and he said curtly "I haven't all night and I'm not about to start now." I made a trying comment. After a short while he said, "Well Goodnight. I hope you find what you're looking for." I thought to myself, "Well, Rick, you've got a cruisy whore reputation again." Immediately a digusting soul came up to me and asked "Are you nervous or do you

always walk around this much." I thought my though more intensely. So I took a last look around the DM and said, well, screw it, so much for Seattle and walked to get my coat. I then returned to the upper floor and invitied the DJ to go get a meal with me. Then John comes up and asks, do you want to go get something to eat. I said "If we leave quickly, fine." He interpreted this to mean, I later learned, that I had to come back soon to get my date. He said, + I didn't understand: I live close enough to be able to walk here. I stood there a moment wanting to escape the DJ and said well I don't see him. Let's split; I walked around the corner wondering really wondering. Then I stopped and walked toward my car and when I got near it I stopped and turned around. There was John. Following me. I walked toward him and I said I am confused. And I asked him what was meant by "I hope you find what you looking for." Not waiting for him to answer, I said, you're who I'm waiting for. Some people were standing around there and they