Diary

PS 111A. I knew the stuff as well as Hist 144A but was unable to conc at that time. PS is not for me. I was distracted by guys a lot that 1/4.

Then with things quite together I went to Britain. My overall feeling is I wish I had gotten more out of it. But I got so much out of it, I don't see how I could have done much more. Ira Buhen + I became great friends running, studying, and traveling together. But that blew up as we went with Craig Rusk for four weeks in Russia and Europe. He was overpowering, I think I made him jealous, but thank God for mellow Craig.

I got straight B+s in all classes which I suppose is good for me, in H + SS, which they all were. It took me a long time to come to that conclusion. I simply am not interested in them enough to really study. How much of my time do I study them outside of class. ZERO. The next 1/4 I tried my hand at Theatre + Soc Change / Dobbs and blew it. That more than anything else caused me to go into my trauma last fall. I got a C+ ON MY TRANSCRIPT after getting a C. How in hell? That along with a B

FOR EDITX, and I for Soc, a toughy, gave me trouble. Everything was fine till about the fourth week of school when I realized all was not perfect. I analyzed my life so hard. It was good for me to do so. I tore myself apart and picked, picked, picked. It did not help my grades at all. I got a B in Astro, a terrible course anyway so I don't worry about it, but I got a B in EE 211, Principles of Pulse and Timing Circuits, after taking the final. I don't think I can change that. It will always remind me of that terrible 1/4. If I do well next Win + Spr, I'll still be in for law school. Spring quarter turned out to be 8 As and 3 A-s. I got the C+ turned into a pass. THere is no way I could have done well in Dobbs class. I rarely said anything which showed my interest. [Note to right] Also I took pass in Music Thoery but did well (As?) in Phil 160 + EE lab. [/note]

So freshman, sophomore, and junior years were very good, eventually. I did as well as I could each quarter, considering I'd never goofed off Spr Soph, that I didn't know my limits Fall Junior, and I was only

casually interested in H + SS, Win Junior year. But it was all good just the same. I'm glad I did all I did. I was in a play too, Spr Junior year, "The Interview," which my parents saw me in.

Then I left for New York + saw Donna where we more or less ended our relationship. I had a fantastic time there in NY, seeing Lorelei, etc. Then to DC where I stayed for the summer after getting a job with Sam Numn. It was good. Playing all the time. Seeing Stanford people, going to Harvard-Stanford parties, making meals with Bob Bunnell. And I came out.

One day in Georgetown where I'd gone to buy a TV but decided against it, I went to see For Pete's Sake with Barbra Streisand. I was at first unable to sit with this fabulous guy but then the fat old man next to him moved so I made my move. We walked out of the theater and he invited me out for some drinks. We eventually ended up in my bed. I was so drunk, but we was so beautiful. We danced at Grand Central Station, and Lost and Found.

I didn't go out much since I had to finish ME 111 Failure Prevention. When I did go out, I saw Bob Bunnell there. What a laugh. We had a good time talking about it all but I never went to bed with him.

I left DC, almost wanting to, to get out of 114 3rd St. It was negative. I got home and put all my travel stuff away. Then I attempted to write my SOC paper, but to no avail. (It was finally finished July 3, '75; whoopee. What a good time!) But I had all things together except those things when I went back to SU so I felt ok about it all. But insecure as I said. It was a very negative 1/4 after the fourth week. I went home on the train. Thought about jumping in front of it instead. Christmas Vac was very egative. I was sad wondering how to get out of it. I heard bells one time. Negative. It was so sad. Now I can look back and say from experience, "Never give up hope."

I thought about Soc 143 and totally screwed myself up. I could not comprehend it. And even now I should not pat myself about it. I did it + did well but it took me a year. And it was largely the thought line of other authors. I excerpted + quoted a lot. It is done now I think my transcript is set.

Anyway I went back to school in Jan only to stop attending Feb 3. Just in time to get at least part of my tuition back. It was good to take the classes I did and stop. I felt so good giving up ME 101 Visual Thinking + Phil 160B. Walking among the Eucalyptus. I stayed till the 14th because of Valentines. And then flew home with all my stuff.

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