Diary

I couldn't find my ignit. key. So he had to drive me home. I went in got flashlight + helped. I found keys under spare tire. So he had to drive me back to apts. Wasn't too pleased. But I don't think he was too pissed.

I got cleaned up + went to work. Regular sort of business day, for 2 M's. Then dinner at 6:30 w/ all, at Ivory Chopsticks. Then exercise. Then home + [wash?] + MHMH. So much grass I really flew.

Today Tues Jan 18 I had headache all day cuz I didn't know what I was doing. I wanted to call Cal soft houses to. But other work. So tonite I get my head straight + write letters + solve it. Tomorrow morning I take action.

One thing I did today was resolve that time accounting

resolved to 4M, 2E, + - 6E. Which means MSoft owes Editx 4 half days + that I should work on EDITX all day Sunday since playing the last two Sundays is what has caused me to use Monday evening for exercise.

Now who do I want to work for in LA? I think it is resolved that I will do so. But I'm not sure. All the reason I've given 2 weeks ago are still valid.

Also since then Bill has shown me his dishonesty. With Hilton, with myself, saying he pushed GE through, with 6502 BASIC. He + I don't see eye to eye. Paul + I are not very good friends either. I am not exhilarated. But it's a good job.

But most of all - Do I want to tie myself to it? In ABQ. No No No!!!

CSC one never hears about. But its worth a try. I

think SDC in Santa Monica would be ideal though. Of all I've heard of, it should be the one.

I have not had any very deep thoughts on anything since I got back after Christmas + New Years, except for the stuff written Jan 8, for the previous week. I want to think about Edx + a new job tomorrow. Do all the reading I need to do, make calls to job prospects. That is all that really concerns me. See what happens. Think about it all. ---------------------Notes on my intimate conversation w/ Chip. Janey is very lonely. Got no presents. No cards at Christmas. Cried at Chip's. Chip says it is not a sexual relationship. Jamey's parents shun him. I actually said I guess he needs you more than I do. Chip tried to change subject once. I started

discussion by apologizing for making things so awkward. He said ok and ask me where I wanted to go for brunch. I got back on the track + told him I realize he just wants to be friends but that last night was the first time I really had to get on that desire of his. Told him I think it is good for us to be friends so long as I get to see him couple times a week. He told me about Jamey. I told him about Jim LaJeune. With everything out in the open ,we went + had a good Sunday.

------------------------------

Friday night - Jan 21

After writing last Tues night, I went to sleep, then got up + read all I'd recently written (incl 70 pgs) then wrote note on my intimate conversation, the talked with myself about how I'd feel about leaving + why I got screwed over. Finally decided all was ok + for the best right now in all respects of my doing computer software. But I must make moves to move to LA + I must figure out EDX.

Thurs was a big NCR day, then Chip at night. Wed night I read. Also Thurs early even I ex'd more than halfway, but not completely. Then Friday was DDC (Conrac). So here I am after dinner. Still no more thats to change my mind. But a question rose as to how much of a whore I am. Spr + Sum of 75 I was coming out + I deserved a good horny time. The following fall, I only went out Fri + Sat nights. And stayed out some Sundays. Worked very hard on 6800 BASIC.