Diary

Noon- 2:30 Plan Labor Day Weekend 1207 7:30-9:50 DINNER THURS 1200 7:05-9:21 DINNER TUES [this entry circled in red ink with text above in red ink- 5/89 Why did I want to go given July 4 experience?] [text inserted beside- I had nothing I wanted to explore even. STAY AT DICK'S THURSDAY NIGHT WORK FRIDAY MORN EXERCISE " AFT DINNER WITH JORGE FRI EVE WORKOUT SAT MORN LUNCH W/RIK C. [text inserted beside and highlighted in yellow- 5/89 He hadn't been to visit me in Sea.] GO TO LAGUNA IN CONVERTIBLE SAT NIGHT IN LAGUNA SUNDAY AT THE BEACH TEA DANCE AT BOOM BOOM [entire list above bracketed in red ink with text along side- FIFE'S & HIGHLANDS ARE BOOKED SOLID] HOME TO LA W/ RIK MONDAY GO TO MAGIC MOUNTAIN W/DICK MONDAY NIGHT AT DICK'S [three items above bracketed with red ink text along side in red ink- ??? Silverlake tower Rec. and Rik] EXERCISE TUESDAY MORNING [ arrow drawn from text to other text on side written in red ink-Pretty much the way it turned out, except no Rik (5/89)-] 2:30-3:30 LUNCH 3:30-9:00 Work on Sort bug & Solve it. Summarize APR '83-Now

Apr-June SORT & ISAM intensely ( see 11/17/83 for review) July-Oct 12 '83 ['83 in red ink] POLISH sort (Kangi, change tag sort, fix bugs) Very prelim research into Personal Acct Reject Apple GWBASIC No timers, graphics, sounds Finish TRS Sort Situation Reject Report Writer/ Data Entry Utilities Final progress Report 10/12 that is Languages Reject Commodore BASIC on 9/25 End of languages & DBMS for me[red ink and yellow highlight first 3 words] End of 3 & 6 year periods [red ink] Focus Personal Acct on just that [red ink] No listmaker or time mgr [red ink] Play with D & S first time Oct. 11. Inspired. [red ink] Reject other language- hosted Sorts. [red ink] Dynamic memory management hassles. [red ink] Not only is assembly language behind me but also systems products in general Step up from Business Languages [box around text -Apr- June to end of list with text along side in red ink and double underlined- C'EST TRES PASSE-] Trip to VBC Oct 1. Brad. Atari: graphics software. Softwave Store: Everyman's DB Primer.

couldn't do this till I have experienced [red ink at top of page] coding on Mac & have Pers Acct underway [red ink at top of page] FRI 8/24 10:00 Work & Dentist [black ink inserted text next to sentence on page top] 12:00[ black ink and pointed to text below] October 10/16 at Clark Hatch: Very depressed about having nothing to show for my work. -Put my accounts on D & S[highlighted in yellow], and realize it subsumes all I'd thought up until then. -Desire to do a visible product like a 6502 software toy with sound & graphics, but I realize that they aren't super important, and I've already got code on every COMMO[text inserted above] 64 already! [texted inserted beside list- TOUT PASSE-] - Lots of wasted time whining about my env't. Depressed -Musical ear training => forget sensitivity to music -How can I get more money?[red ink underline] Feel left behind. [text inserted below in red ink- "I'M NOT HOT"] [arrow from money to text in red ink- I WANT RESPECT. November -Decide I must manage others. I'm 30 now.[bracketed with 3 points above starting at -Lots] That's the only way my salary will go up. [text inserted beside- GROW INTO ROLE-] But problems: commitment to group & to work & to Seattle & to sogginess & to lunches w/ others -Very bleak even though Halloween was great [red ink] -Study Negotiation to try to get "deal" for Pers Acct -Waste time on options some more -I want comfort: household, cook, lover, before I do PA -Fix bugs in Sort. Important. -LOTS OF WASTED TIME: MORNING MADNESS, DAN(HAWAII), ETC.[red ink] -REVIEW W/BILL, REALIZING I HAVE NOTHING NEW TO OFFER [red ink] TO BOLSTER MY SALARY VIS A VIS SORT [red ink] [arrow pointing up to inserted text in red ink- He says I'm best paid prog.[red ink] REALIZE I'VE GOT LOTS OF TIME. NO DEADLINE [red ink and highlighted in yellow] [text in red ink on side of page pointing to this comment- TOUT PASSE MAIS-] -WHO WOULD USE Pers Acct & WHY? DISH IT! [highlighted in yellow] SKI TRIP -chess...Reuben Fine's book December -Decide not to do Pers Acct.[highlighted in yellow] It won't help me. But I did improve my paper methods.40/80 column Yuk -Read books on Personal Money Matters -Realize that YTD transaction reports are feasible -Decide I am enthused[highlighted in yellow and connected to first point under December and point under November-WHO Would...-] & describe the HOUSE I want -RE-EMPHASIZE FORGETTING INVESTMENT ADVICE & [red ink] STOCK OPTIONS, JUST GO FOR DCA & DIVERSIFICATION. [red ink] -STRESS ROYALTIES TO BILL. BILL OFFERS DOUBLE TIME. [red ink] -BUT MY INCOME SHOULD NOT BE BASED ON PDT SUCCESS.[red ink] -DECIDE TO DECLINE BILL'S OFFER. I WANT TIME TO DEVELOP[highlighted in yellow and seemingly connected to four previous points in October and November and possibly -I HAVE NOTHING NEW TO OFFER-?] -BOB HAS JULIAN OVER SUNDAY NIGHT, DURING "IT'S A ...LIFE" -MONDAY[inserted above-12/17] MORNING WAS BEAUTIFUL WITH SNOW. SO SAD -TAKE A WEEK OFF FOR CHRISTMAS. -TAKE A WEEK OFF FOR FURNITURE SHOPPING.[furniture shopping highlighted in yellow] -NEW YEARS EVE BLOWUP W/ ARTURO. - MOVE OLD FURNITURE TO MOM & DAD'S[ [text inserted along side these bullet points- TOUT PASSE] 12/18 Bill sends memo "Given you are the best paid [highlighted in yellow] development person, this is crazy." [highlighted in yellow][arrow pointing to- Monday 12/17] LOTS OF WASTED TIME. BLEAK. [red ink] BETTER THAN $. TIME TO PLAY TOO. [this text is inserted in bottom corner of page with and arrow pointing to -I WANT TIME TO DEVELOP] [Play too- underlined 3 times.] [all text under December has text inserted beside-TOUT PASSE][ all text from October down is enclosed with text on side of page- very dark, dreary, damp. AUTUMN.]

5:00p Housework & Dinner &[in black ink and pointing to text below]

January Letter to Laurel ? Cable TV SHOP FOR VIDEO EQUIPMENT & STEREO (FISHER) ARRANGE FURNITURE & SHOP FOR MORE & ACCESSOR Move to New Office. Return IBM PC from home to office. Move Cobol stuff to Mom & Dad's book on Pers Acct VENEER TEETH [red ink] BUY FLOWERS & PLANTS AT MARKET. STOCK LIQUOR. NEAL BALL. RITA CHRISTMAS. GOT[ inserted above] WATER-SKI VIDEO. MULTI-TOOL INTERFACE IS TOUGH FOR ONCE/ MONTH USE [red ink] SKI ALPENTAL GET ORGANIZED AT HOME: BOXES, CLOSETS, PHOTOS, ETC Pers Acct is for Elite users with a full PC. BROWNING MEETS SPIVY. EMOTIONS EXPLODE. [emotions explode in red ink] Gray cat starts visiting. February GET INTO WORK, WRITING DESIGN REPORT THINK ABOUT RELATIONSHIP W/ BOB. PROFOUND. [red ink] READ "BEEF IT." DO SQUATS, AT CLARK HATCH. [red ink] WATERBED BREAKS. GET NEW BED. Rugs to Emm'ls. REARRANGE INVESTMENTS. STREAMLINE. MORGAN. FINISH Pers Acct Spec for IBM PC. More Neal. Mid-February BIG POINT OF CLOSURE [closure highlighted and cirlced in red] [line has box around] [closure has red arrow pointing to text at top of page in red ink and yellow highlight- Forget all that comes before this. Try hard.-] BOB, LIVING ROOM, BEDROOM, PRODUCT DESIGN, BODY INVESTMENTS, OFFICE AT WORK, OLD FURN& BOOKS AT PARENTS. [last 2 lines of text in box and highlighted in yellow] CORONATION- MY MARDI GRAS TO CELEBRATE CLOSURE ANTI- TUBS- for self respect. THROW OUT CB & 8709 CARDS SEATTLE STARTS TO FEEL VERY DAMP, DISMAL, DREAPY [red ink] JOIN CLARK HATCH FEB 21. PECS HURT GOOD. [red ink] START TO WORK STEADYHOURS 8/ DAY. [text inserted below and pointing to steady- FEELING BETTER IN APPS! and circled below additional text ? PRODUCTS & PEOPLE] STUDY MULTI TOCLS TECH INTFACE DOC. LOTSA NEW CLOTHES "CAN WE TALK" TSHIRT[ can we talk tshirt inserted above] LOTSA CLOUDY SUNDAYS... REJECT PCjr. GO FOR MACINTOSH. [red ink and highlighted in yellow] Grammy's. Jeff showed me MAC on Feb. 16. [sentence in red ink and highlighted in yellow] March GET EXCITED ABOUT MAC 7 CONCEPTS [ red ink and yellow highlight] LEARN ALL ABOUT IT FROM USER VIEW [red ink and yellow highlight] REALIZE THAT CLOUDY WEATHER MAKES ME [red ink] UNPRODUCTIVE SOMETIMES DURING THE YEAR. [red ink] WORKING HARD, UGLY SUNDAYS... GRAHAM HILL 3/18 STUDY FOR CDP EXAM DAILY. LITTLE INTEREST IN DP MGT SECTIONS.[interest...- inserted below] SO DREARY AND NO ONE TO PLAY WITH... [red ink] VERY LONELY. BUT WEEKDAYS PROVIDED HOPE. [red ink] BY EXERCISE MUSCLE GAINS & MAC STUDY [red ink and yellow highlight] DO TAXES.[red ink] PUT OLDIES MUSIC AWAY IN BOX, late 60's-75. ORGANIZE MONEY INFO, DESK FOLDERS [red ink] WINDOWS SEMINAR, TAKING NOTES. [highlighted in yellow] SCOTT W & STEVE MATH. [January to end of list enclosed] During Oct-Apr, I would say I spent 3 [red ink and highlighted in yellow] months on Microsoft [line drawn above to inserted text-Pers Acct-] stuff & 3 months on me. [red ink and yellow highlight]

I can try to forget up to July 1 too. [red ink] But that whole year enable this next[word inserted below] one to exist! [red ink]

April thru Mid May Study MAC Generic Application [ highlighted in yellow] Redesign Pers Acct for MAC [highlighted in yellow] CDP Review & test LA & SF [circled in red ink] Mid May - July1 MECA'S MYM Put all 1983 records into it [arrow pointed to meca's mym] Study it thoroughly even taxes [arrow pointed to meca's mym] Study Practical Acct Decide to use BASIC [highlighted in yellow] [text above starting at April enclosed in box]

July - Mid August COMPLETE BUDGETING SOFTWARE FIND BUGS IN BASIC. OFFER ADVICE ON LANG [highlighted in yellow] LA & SF [circled in red ink] [text starting at July - Mid August enclosed in box]

There was very little written between [red ink] April and Now, Aug 24. Up to [red ink] Aug 21, I had to finish the progress [red ink] report & that could only be done [red ink] after Basic Stabilized, so Aug.21 [red ink] is the end of that Period. [red ink]

Now, I'm moving into winter, [red ink] still in Seattle, and so I spent the [red ink] last few days figuring out what [red ink] I will do this fall, and, today, [red ink] seeing what I did last fall [red ink] and winter. [red ink]

FRI [black ink in corner of page] 8/24 [black ink in corner of page] 8:00 [black ink in corner of page] SUMMARY

Another reason for looking at [highlighted in yellow] last winter is to see that I [highlighted in yellow] can forget it. [highlighted in yellow] It was not too well planned for, and it was a long winter. The last two winters, I've been ok till about Mid Feb, and then it gets awful. I can do Jan - Apr like in 79 & 82. Or I can do Oct - Feb like the last 2 years. But I must plan [highlighted in yellow starting at - But-] something exciting for Mid Feb [highlighted in yellow] to Mid May in 1985.

Spring for the last 3 years has be awkward because it's so late, and there's no one to really share it with. And this summer has shown me it can be boring.

Maybe I just meed to find work I like, as in acquisitions perhaps.

I need more time of the year [highlighted in yellow] to be inspired if I'm going to [highlighted in yellow] continue to design well. In [highlighted in yellow] Seattle, I lose 3 months/ year, [highlighted in yellow] at least. [entire page in red ink]