Diary

Thurs Aug 7 '86

8:15 Breakfast at Log Cab. Go get Dan's mom's Fiat and drive up to Hurricane Ridge. Beautiful drive. Hike on trail. Last time I was there was Jan '85. Drive back to town.

12:00 Drop off Dan. Drive to lunch in town. Drop off Vic, seeing Dan's parents house. Not bad, but the jacuzzi room was too tacky. Blue & green wallpaper & carpet and carpet next to shower. Parents room was a mess too. But living & dining rooms were nice though small, but so are they.

1:30 Windsurfing lesson at the lake. Learn balance and crossing wind. Got pretty wind a while and forced me to learn position of sail to cut into and out of wind. Beautiful, warm day too

5:00 Drive back to house. Shower. Pickup Vic. See Dan at motel. Dinner with Vic at the Greenery. Crab & shrimp louie. Decide to go back to Seattle since I was feeling a little confused & disoriented. And I didn't really wnat to stay another day since there are things I wanted to do at home before weekend.

I considered staying overnite and then hiking a trail (but with Vic?), getting a massage (but with unfulfilled lust), and then driving down the coast (but alone?), and I thought well maybe if I stay one more day, I'll get to cuddle Dan, but why should I want to "5' 6 3/4" not college grad, long hair, low cash flow, still involved with John. And he wouldn't be home till midnite and I wouldn't want to wake up in that place

7:45 So I left and just missed the 9:10 ferry which gave me time to sit & think at the ferry docks.

The northwest is so beautiful in August, but soon there will be 7 months of dismal weather (at least mostly dismal), and then who will I have close friendship with? I want to know some people who can relate to me, are nice looking, have nice apartments, and are sensible & successful.

10:30 Take ferry, see Pat & Gigi. Put stuff away a little. Take Selsun shower for dots and go out. But Ritz & Neighbors don't even come close too the environment I want, let alone my being able to find friends. It's been 4 years, and I haven't gotten friends yet. How can I expect to?

12:15 Go home. Rest. But wake up & JO looking with binoculars across street to other apartments. Too wierd

1:00 To sleep

Fri Aug 8 '86

7:45 Get up. Misc. Mom calls. Put stuff away. More misc

10:00 Write up last two days.

10:30 Misc

11:00 Finish reading Oct 82-Mar 83 review and see that I'm still not interested in trading even if short-term taxation decreases

Also read Apr 83-Aug 84 review and see that I accomplished lots. From Oct 84-Mar 85, I just coded. What I'm living now is the period that started after Pers Acct was shelved in mid August. That's one year ago.

But even though I don't do anything with it day to day, Languages still sort of lives in me and so does Pers Acct.

And I feel like I've learned a lot from them. Maybe I want to do something with that knowledge, but not until I have my home life together. I want family & friends and I need to spend time on them. But read some about DB & 4GL maybe

- Bob calls and we talk about Dan's place and going to Victoria

Also talk about Bill Farrell who he saw at beach, had dinner with, and showed his apartment to.

- Vic calls and says he's coming in for the weekend.

1:30 Make & eat lunch

2:30 Look at notes from last April about staying at Microsoft. Realize in 6 weeks I'll have boring work to do & 7 months of yukky weather. Serious?

Bill calls.

3:15 Go to gym.

5:30 Wendy's

Go to work to do mail & email and to put list of vacation days together. I've got five more weeks as of now. Miscellaneous stuff too.

7:30 Get car filled & washed. Go home. Misc. Call Jorge, Chip, David Burns, Brad, but none are in. Talk with Bill about canoeing. Misc

10:15 Walk to Ritz meeting Mary Jean enroute. Have a margarita with her.

11:00 Drive by Daddy's & Park Bench, but go to Neighbors. Sorta fun. Run into Bill at Brass Connection. Dance a bit but I can't stand it so tell them I'm going home.

6/89: Hmm? But it's what I wanted.

Stop at Sparks on way home.

Ned Behnre says Rita Beach Party was a lot of fun. And that Dan wasn't done coke so much.

Ned wished Bob wasn't so "paranoid about Dan" and said Bob was nothing without the Ritas.

Hardly true, but I wish they were friends

1:00 Go home to bed feeling sorry for Bob...

Sat Aug 9 '86

8:45 Think about what to do in near future and rest of year.

1) Try to find "equivalent beings"

Gay, fairly good-looking, moderately successful, professionals here or anywhere

2) Work at leisurely pace, and use up vacation by working short weeks and taking a few whole weeks off.

3) Specifically find someone who can afford half a $240K house.

4) Find some exciting work to do next, or at least read to get a better idea of what to do next. 4GL?

Talk with Bill & Vic

11:00 Do CMA & AM Express in Pers Acct.

12:30 Make & eat lunch

1:30 Exchange scale & get map

Try out scale. Works better.

3:00 Body Nautilus.

5:00 Go home. Snack. Shower.

Check out Ritz. Empty.

Buy fish at QFC

Get mail including Oct 1 rent $700. 10% increase since June '84.

Try out $700 with 27% tax rate finding that equivalent to $110K.

Confirms once again that if I want to improve standard of livign I need to find something with $$.

Make dinner.

Bill calls. Friendly/funny as usual so I agree to let him come over at 10:00.

8:30 Finish house cost analysis by printing out 50% vs 27%

Read an Infoworld

9:00 Watch last half of Prizzi's Honor.

10:15 Bill shows up.

We go to Ritz. Nobody that I want to talk with there but Bill has lots of energy. Meets guy from Deutsch Schuller in Pacifica, and talks too long.

Walk to my house and I pickup coke and drive to Elite. Joke.

Then to Tugs and Bill doesn't like the sound system and says its too young. So I suggest going to Neighbors but then he says we'll have to pay cover again. So we go to Sparks.

Not very fun crowd, and trollish, so I sneak off to head to snort, after which I had a fun time.

But only due to the drugs.

Danced to Warm Leatherette, etc

I wish we could've gone to Neighbors but I would have had to pay.

2:30 Go home, but Bill wants to read Olympic Guide and when we go to bed, he's in a talking, giggly mood.

I fainlly just roll over, but then say I have to J/O before I go to sleep.

It was not loving sex.

3:30 Slept pretty well.

But it was 2 weeks since last time. Good to wait.

Sun Aug 10 '86

Cloudy all day

10:30 Wake up. David Burns calls so we don't have to shower together. Breakfast at Kidd V.

12:00 Cloudy so no canoeing so we drive to Snoqualmie Falls and back via back road.

More rock, felt like index trip.

Just can't do it anymore.

Not unfun, but awkward.